October 15, 2006

OK I am overwhelmed.  I think it is just a case of no structure.  My schedule has changed every day.  The expectations of me have changed.  The children have the same situation therefore they are working as a pack.  Beyond just dealing with a group of 23 small children with little structure in their lives, they don’t speak English and I don’t speak Thai.  Generally I don’t know the situation or rules and when I do they can’t understand me.  It also seems that the only English word they know is “No”.  At least they say it to me all the time.  I just need a schedule and then I will have my time with the kids.  I think that is the only solution. 

Why won’t I work with children from America?  Or even children that speak English?  I must enjoy torturing myself.  Ok ok torture is probably the wrong word. it is just a challenge and challenging yourself is good.  Right?